No One Ever Said it Would Be Easy

I did not have unrealistic expectations for pregnancy, I knew it was going to be difficult (especially after my intro into it a.k.a. 1st trimester). But you can not imagine, without having experienced it, what "difficult" entails. I have now gone over a week without sleep. My nights have become a source of anxiety for me, which is not helping matters. I can't fall sleep nor can I stay asleep. And as you can imagine, it is catching up to me. I don't feel like myself, I am an exhausted, weepy version. Couple that with the pregnancy hormones and aches and pains, and I'm a walking fun house!

I have a really bad habit of saying "how am I going to do this for "x" more months?". All this does is cause me to panic when I should really be living day to day. So instead of getting through the next two months, I'm going to try to focus on getting through the day. I hope, pray and wish that tonight I get some sleep!

We have our doctors appointment tomorrow, 30 week ultrasound. We'll get some measurements and pictures, I can't wait to see her. Hopefully my doctor can provide me with some tips on how to get some sleep.

So Sweet!

My coworkers wife made this hand quilted sweater for She-ra. It is the cutest thing ever! I love it. Sometimes I'm blown away at the generosity and kindness of other people, especially when those people have never met me before!

Operation "She-ra's Nursery" Has Begun

Finally! Finally, I can say that we have started the nursery. And whats even better, we did A LOT! The walls are painted and the chair rail molding is up. It looks perfect, better than I imagined. We also hung the chandelier and the crib is in place. Now we just have to get the rest of our furniture and do some more detailed decorating and we'll be ready to welcome our lil peanut.

I already feel an overwhelming sense of relief. Once it is done, I will post some pictures.

This weekend we took our hospital tour. It was informative, but I think we already knew most of it. It definitely makes it more real though. We also had a lot of friends and family over for a Labor Day BBQ and Danny had his Diaper Shower. All went very well, and we had a great time. I may have broken my toe, but it's not a good story and I'll be ok.

I'm coming up on 30 weeks this weekend and I really can't believe it. I feel like it wasn't that long ago when I was 12 weeks, and then 20. I'm not ready to be done yet, I'm not ready to have her out of me. I will do my best to savor these last 10 weeks with my baby girl so close to me. Because really, she'll never be as close as she is at this very moment.

Sleepless in Scottsdale

Sorry about the title. LOL, humor me, I'm delirious!

I have had an incredibly emotional and frustrating week dealing with my dog and her mystery ailment. We have been treating her for a "slipped disk" sort of issue in her neck. She's on pain killers, muscle relaxers and steroids. She shouldn't be feeling a thing at this point. All tests for liver, pancreatitis and Valley Fever have come back negative. She has resorted to being a puppy and I have become the mean mommy. Whenever I am around she acts up, trembling and whimpering. But when I'm not around, she's perfectly fine. The vet said she is doing it to get attention from me. SO ANNOYING. So now I have to be stern and not baby her (mean mommy).

All of this has caused me a lot of stress. Last night I went to sleep just fine but woke up at 12:30am and could not go back to sleep. I moved to the couch where I laid for hours, not sleeping. Around 4am I finally fell asleep only to wake up two hours later for work. This is not something I want to do again. I find my mind is always on my dog, listening for her whimper.

I am praying that this is just a stage and that she will soon go back to being my sweet puppy. And then I have the baby and we'll get to deal with that!

Glucose Test

PASSED! Yeah!!!!!! :-)

Oh What a Weekend

We had a little "staycation" this weekend for a family wedding. We had so much fun with our family and friends. We even got some pool time in (hot hot hot). I had to get dressed up for the wedding which I was lucky enough to borrow my friends maternity dress which was so cute.

 Handsome man and his pregnant wife

My fun filled weekend ended abruptly on Sunday. My poor dog, Baby, has been acting strange lately. I know her very well so I just knew something was wrong. The vet originally sent her home and said that it was stress related. Once I saw her on Sunday, I knew it was more than stress. She was shaking violently all night so after a tear-filled call to my parents we decided to take her to the ER vet Sunday night. We were there for hours, leaving around midnight. After some blood work and tests the vet gave her some pain meds and told us it was her liver and we were to schedule an ultra sound for her the next day.

Monday morning rolls around and it seems that the pain meds aren't working for her. I call our main vet and we were about to head over there when my car wouldn't start. Dead battery. After the help of my Dad and AAA I was able to get a new battery and get Baby to the vet. Ugh. My dog now had a pain patch attached to her and we're waiting for the results of another test. Vet thinks its pancreatitis.

What I have learned from all this is that it is ten times harder dealing with life's curve-balls while being pregnant. I thank God for my husband and my amazing parents. I just pray my puppy is going to be ok. And I can't imagine what it will be like when I'm dealing with my sick child, a hundred times harder.

Work Baby Shower

 Yum Yum

Holy Back Pain!

A new pregnancy symptom has made its way into my life over the past couple of days. I am having terrible, awful, miserable lower back pain. I sit at a desk all day, and I know that is making it ten times worse. I have tried EVERYTHING to make it more comfortable. I have tried three different chairs, with or without a back pillow, and I have my feet elevated. But it is very near unbearable. I get up at least once an hour to walk around the office (walk, ha! that's funny, what I'm doing is more of a limp and waddle).

I'm not really sure what else I can do to alleviate some of the pain. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, so maybe she'll give me some suggestions. Tomorrow is also the infamous blood glucose test. I am seriously hoping and praying I don't fail it.

Today my coworkers had a baby shower for me at the office. It was SOOOO sweet and perfect, I couldn't have been happier. Everyone brought food and we had a potluck and then played some games. My friend Allie is an amazing baker and she made a perfectly pink Neapolitan cake, it was DE-LICIOUS. I ate a lot and opened presents and stuffed myself full of sweets! I will post pictures soon.

Here's hoping I find some magic back pain eraser (OMG, I have 2 1/2 more months of this!)

I Can't Decide

I can't decide if I'm offended or if I should be offended. Should I care if someone looks at me and says, "wow, that's a big baby", or "you have 2 and a half months left! I thought you were due soon".

I know most of it is ignorance, but I can't help but feel a twinge of anger. My baby is measuring exactly how she should be, so no, she is not a big baby. That only leaves the word big to be applied to ME! So there in lies the offense.

I've read enough to know that this is a common occurrence (seriously people, just don't say anything at all. Unless you want to say how I'm glowing or how great I look, just keep your mouth shut). So, I will get over it but I do fear what will be said once I actually do resemble a house!

For those of you who have reached out to me and been so sweet and helpful, I thank you! You have no idea how much I appreciate it. The "Mom Club" is one I am very proud to now be a member of. As a friend once told me "Us mom's stick together". Love you all!

26 Weeks