I had my doctors appointment today and everything looks good. While I was sitting there I started to get a little nervous, realizing that I'm not far away from delivering our baby girl. We checked her heart beat, which was 167. She's head down and facing my right side. She was all scrunched up in a ball, it looked pretty tight in there. We could see her chest and stomach rising and falling and the tech said that she is practicing her breathing, getting ready to come out. This really hit me hard. It is such a beautiful miracle, that we're just wired to do those things, instinctively.
I have this thought which is haunting me, that I will deliver and they're going to tell me it's a boy. I would still be over-joyed, of course, but it gives me anxiety because everything we have is for a girl. I asked the tech to check today but because she is so tight in there we couldn't get a look. I don't know why I've been thinking that, I'm sure it's just nerves. I've been having a lot of crazy thoughts these days.
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